Tuesday, Mar. 22, 2005 - 8:36 p.m.
'J having a personal crisis'
Oh norks, I was mid-way through an entry when I clicked 'x' instead of '-'. What a prannock.At home this weekend I found an old school notebook on which my maths partner had drawn a picture of a girl with her head on the desk, captioned 'J having a personal crisis'. It's funny how, really, you (OK, I) are/am just the same as you always were but you/I always forget that fact and think, blimey I'm growing into a crisis ridden melon. But no, I was a crisis-ridden melon when I was 17, no doubt when I was 13, and more than likely also when I was 9. And probably always a vocal, flamboyant kind of a crisis. (You could tell that 'J having a personal crisis' was also smiling through her drapey hair.)
I was saying this to mum and how I worry that I'm becoming known at work for being unable to stop myself from flamboyantly exclaiming when work was BORING me, and she said 'oh but you've always been like that'. It's good to be reminded, even if it's not a personality trait to be proud of. (Rachel said it's not so bad because when I'm enjoying something, you also know about that, and that's nice.)
(Before you think of me as a despicable loser, I sometimes go whole days hardly saying a word, such as today.) (Wait, does this make me seem any better? Probably not.)
Approximately how annoying is it:
a) to go to Paris for the day but only have enough hourst traverse the city, have a meeting, traverse back and return to London? ANS: very annoying, and only justifiable on the purchase of pastries.
b) that because our travel budgets have been cut, I might not be able to go to a meeting in Manchester (cost to company: £55 train, £5 lunch), whereas my boss has already had his flight to NEW ZEALAND paid for, probably eating up the entire travel budget in itself? ANS: very annoying. It's New Zealand! The other side of the world! RIGHT NEXT TO where he grew up ... suspicious...