2001-08-16 - 8:59 a.m.
The Pixie August Review
Do something pretty while you canNews today is that I have had my hair cut. The footballer's mullet is gone. Although - it looked really good just before he sent me to get my hair washed, after he'd mussed it about a bit. Why must hairdressers have such magic hands that you can't recreate the effects of on your own? It's like being shown a bit of what love is like and then having it taken away; you know how good it (love/hairstyle) can get but you have to put up with something inferior for most of the time.
So I asked for a pixie crop and said he could make the rest up as long as the back was short (the back of my hair grows too quickly into a mullet). It's usually best not to give him any direction at all, and trust everything to him. But I really wanted a pixie crop this time and told him not to leave a trademark his-bit on the side. Instead I have two little bits longer behind my ears - which sounds like it could be some 80s disaster but I assure you it's not. It's grand.
Anyway, I need to look as charmante as possible for when I'm in Edinburgh. Did I tell you the only press conference that is on while I'm up there is the one with Sean and Robin Wright Penn? Mmm, it is.
Did I tell you that I think I really have moved on this year? I dislike the word 'changed' because it implies that you have exchanged on part of your character for another, when what really happens is that you uncover more of your character and allow bits to develop. I'd like to think that I wouldnt' become as crazy as I have been over the last 2 years, emotionally. But I think what I was doing was going through a necessary emotional development that I had missed out on before. I didn't think I lacked confidence 3 years ago, and I don't feel an over-confident person now, but in many subtle ways I am much confident. I guess it's about learning what the world's about. The things you learn after leaving formal education are so much more subtle and harder to indentify. Which is probably why I feel like I haven't achieved that much this year. Hmmm, but I have -
Started writing film reviews
Started writing gibberish (e.g. this stuff) more
Started taking more photographs
Started going to the gym - there's a world's first
Met a boy and steered the stormy seas of being his friend
Stopped getting maudlin about TAFKAH
Spent a week's holiday in Thailand on my own and not felt on my own at all
Been to Italy twice with work
Had my name in a few books
And what I haven't achieved is -
Getting any more of an idea about where my career might/should be heading
Come to any conclusions about moving abroad
So not so bad I guess for an August review of the year.